Tuesday, January 26, 2010

consume me like a fire

Ever hear a song (or two) that just describes where you are in your walk? There's a few songs I've been hearing lately that just make me well up when I hear certain parts of the lyrics. Right now, I'm loving two different songs. There are just a few lines in each that get me all teary eyed. I have to be careful though, because if I'm not, I will let those lines become like scripture to me. So ingrained in my head that I pay more attention to those lines than to actual scripture. But I wanted to share them with you. Before I do, I should tell you that my favorite song is always changing based on where I'm at in my life at the moment. First, Needtobreathe's "Something Beautiful" is just an amazing tune. The part that has described me lately says "It's like I know where I need to be, but I can't figure out.... Just how much air I will need to breathe when your tide rushes over me." I have so often thought to myself, I know where I need to go and where I need to be in my walk, but sometimes I wonder how I'm supposed to get there. Another part of it has been the prayer of my heart lately. It says, "..this is my desire, consume me like a fire, cause I just want something beautiful to touch me. I know that I'm in reach cause I am down on my knees. I'm waiting for something beautiful." (It's hard for me NOT to close my eyes and lift my hands to Him... not so good when I'm driving). I want to be consumed with HIM, with his LOVE, with all he has planned for my life, with passion to live my life for Christ and Christ alone. And that brings me to my other favorite song of the moment. Barlow Girl's "Beautiful Ending". It is so gorgeous. I love the sound of it. The part of that one that makes me nearly burst out in tears is..."...it scares me to think that I would choose my life over you. Oh my selfish heart divides me from you. It tears us apart." Oh it is so true in my life. Every time I feel like I've lost my way, it's for that reason - that I choose ME and MY life over Him. And it is selfish of me. I don't want it to happen again. I fear going back into the darkness. I also think I am held down by that fear, and I don't want that either. I look forward to finishing the Breaking Free study because I want to be free of that fear (as well as a few other things). I just wanted to share those words with you... Listen to the songs if you haven't yet heard them. I don't think you'll be disappointed.



ps... I feel like EVERYTHING makes me tear up lately.... still haven't decided if that's a good thing, or a bad thing.

1 comment:

  1. These are my 2 favorite quotes from Day 4 of Breaking Free.
    "Faith may be choosing to believe God even when your heart is melting with fear."
    and
    "Faith is tested by what we do with fear, not whether or not we have it."

    You are an awesome woman, mom, wife, and friend! I love ya and I'm praying for you this week!
    Jamie

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