Thursday, March 4, 2010

dreams

My kids are at school. The baby is still snoozing away in bed with Daddy. I'm sitting here unable to get over the ridiculously vivid dream I had last night. First let me say that I did NOT sleep well. And I had a lot of dreams, but one of them is going to haunt me for weeks. It seemed so real that I can remember the way things I touched FELT in my dream. The emotions I felt seemed so real as soon as I woke up. The fact that this dream could really happen scares the daylights out of me. I just want to be passed these first 12 weeks..... I can't tell you how hard this last day or two has been on me emotionally. The wondering, the waiting, the unknown, the sick feeling that something might just be wrong with my unborn child. Yesterday I felt physically good, which I was grateful for and worried about at the same time. Of course this morning, I feel nice and sick. These roller coaster emotions are draining. So draining.

So right now, I'm going to glance at some photos I took yesterday (I promise me that I will not try to edit right now) and then I'm going to go have some quiet time with the Lord. I need Him right now. Especially today.

Today I am 10 weeks 0 days. So far so good okay.

2 comments:

  1. Hang in there sweet girl, God knows excatly what you and your family need. Trust in him know whatever the outcome is that is what god wanted. Give your worries over to the lord and he will comfort you and put sunshine on any gloom..
    I rememeber those dreams, they would put me in a feeling of turmoil and i would feel very drained unless i seeked out the lord.. Hang in there and praying for you to trust in the lord and calm your worries.

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