Monday, May 3, 2010

it's back and forth

I have a love-hate relationship with Facebook. Anyone else ever feel that way? I like that I can keep up more with my family and long distant friends. But I don't like that people will request you *just* to make their friend count go up. I like that people in my life that don't blog or FOLLOW blogs (like I do) can be updated when I post something. But I don't like that people from my past that I let go of (and seemingly let go of me) are now wanting to friend me. It's like easy access to my life without actually having to be involved and form a relationship. It's a hard place for me to be in. I want to be more Christ-like. Lately, it's my big desire. I can't seem to read enough about how to accomplish this lately. I can't seem to get enough of bible studies and scripture. I have this thirst like I've never known before. It's even stronger than when I was a baby Christian. Anyways, I got a little sidetracked. These bystanders to my life are now able to see what's going on without involvement, and I don't want to be ugly or mean and decline their request. But I don't want old hurts following me. *sigh* I just don't really know what to do.

One other thing that bothers me, and as of late, has made me remove a few people from my list is people saying mean things on there for no real reason. I feel like it's NOT necessary to be rude and say something ugly about some random person off the street, or about the general population. Maybe I AM too sensitive, but if God has made me this way and made me a crier, and emotional, and a person who takes things a little personally, is that so wrong? Can it not be okay to be a sensitive person, to feel for others, to want to love on them instead of condemning them? We need to start loving people more than slandering them. Yes, I'm guilty of this too, even as of today. Yes, I get caught up in my own frustrations and want to say mean things in the company of a friend. And then I do it. But gosh dern it, I feel so bad later when I'm recounting my day. And I really am trying to work on this. Some bad habits die hard for me it seems. And NEVER would I put something up mean for 100+ people to read. There's something so wrong about that. (btw... I think it's different when you are genuine and are needing some prayer or advice. For instance, I may tell my Lifegroup peeps that I'm having issues with a dad who has been absent for over 10 years and suddenly my emotions are overwhelming me and my anger is starting to well up again). Do I make any sense at all? Sometimes I think not. I think there's a difference between a random comment that is flat out rude with no hint of joking and something that has actually happened to you. It's the random ones that bug.

Also, I didn't really mean to create a personal FB account. I set one up for my business and somehow was FB illiterate and created a page for my business and then a personal profile page for myself. It really wasn't my intent. But FB won't let you close out the personal one and keep the Fanpage one. I even deleted my Myspace account forever ago cause I couldn't handle all the drama I created for myself. It sounds silly, but I didn't create drama between me and others, it was between me and my emotions. I'm sure that doesn't even make sense! And even if you were in my head right now, you'd be SO confused!! It's true people!


Also, don't be surprised to see this post deleted later, cause if I wake up in the morning and feel like I've offended someone or overstepped my bounds, I'll remove it. Otherwise, it'll bug me forever and guilt will overtake me. It's true;)

5 comments:

  1. Brooke, I don't think this is overstepping boundaries at all. We need to be selective in who we let into our day-to-day, personal lives. For me, that doesn't impact my ministry; I'm still about to love people and be an example to them, without allowing them to cross into this personal realm.

    I've "rejected" several friendship requests on there (my rule of thumb is "if I'm not friends with you in real life, I'm not going to be friends with you on FB"), and I've at times gone through my "friend" list and pruned. If people continually post stuff that I don't want to read, or worry about my kids reading, then they need to go.

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  2. Brooke, I 100% agree with Leslie... You have to be selective who you let in your day to day life.. I mean i treat FB like my everyday life.I wont be friends with anyone on FB that i wouldnt be friends with or like to be friends with in "real" life.I feel like if you are going to be my friend on FB then you need to make a effort to be in my real everyday life, how ever that means...Hang in there the devil is just trying to beat you down and his knows this is a weakness in your life!!!

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  3. Thanks Leslie! I'm glad you see where I'm coming from. In real life, I don't like rude for rude's sake, so naturally it's a bother on FB too.

    You make a good point about allowing them to cross into the personal realm. I really didn't know what to do, but your comment helped.

    Thank you so much :)

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  4. I'm so with you friend...but like you I don't want to be rude by rejecting people...seriously...I have 'friends' on facebook that I don't even remember ever having met! But we have a bunch of mutual friends that I do remember!! haha But seriously can't stand it when people are just plain rude...it's uncalled for and we shouldn't be forced to see it! Go with your gut on this one friend!! I love you tons!!

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