Tuesday, May 17, 2011

i joined weight watchers

I've been thinking about it for a while, losing weight. I'm a big girl. Bigger than I'd like to be.  Everyday I see myself in the mirror and don't like what I see. I'm not happy with who I am on the outside. Food is my idol, my enemy.
And making healthier food choices is not a journey I can do on my own. I have tried. And failed. But honestly I've not felt too motivated lately to try again.

Then I stepped on the scale. Since Brennen has been born, my thought process has been, okay, as long as I don't gain anymore weight, I'll be okay. And then that scale said I had gained over 10 pounds. I was so busy I did not even notice I had packed on extra pounds. I was shocked. I'm very close to being back to the heaviest I have ever been.

So all of yesterday, I thought about whether or not to commit to something I had to pay for and had to be accountable for. I was feeling so emotional over the decision to the point of having to hold back tears.

I chatted briefly with a friend via text messages, talked with my ever supportive husband. And just decided to go for it. What do I have to lose? Well, besides the weight. So I went to my first meeting last night.

Here's the truth about it all. (I can't believe I'm about to say this). I'm 5 foot 3 inches. And I weigh 199.2 pounds. Here I am today:
My first goal: lose 10 pounds.
My ultimate goal: weigh 140 pounds.

2 comments:

  1. Brooke, I'm so proud of you! Finding the motivation to change has always been the hardest part for me. But you're there and you're doing it! I love you sister!!

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  2. Whether or Not you need to lose a few pounds... you are undeniably beautiful Brooke. That first pic really captures your whole mood for this post: contemplative, looking inward and so determined. (And ohmygoodness perfect dof. How?)

    Go Brooke, Go. You can do this!

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I am so happy you are here. Your words make my heart so happy.

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