As soon as I saw it, I knew it was just what I needed and been hoping and praying for.
Living away from my Mom during my years of raising small children has been somewhat challenging at times. We can talk on the phone, but we can't just visit and share talks about this time in my life and that time in hers. It's just not the same. I have had one person in my life since having my first baby that was a Godsend. Seriously, she is like a second Mom to me. I have been so blessed by her and am so thankful for all she has done for our family. I love her and her family dearly. But now, I live away from her also.
Being in a new town, in a new larger church, with one vehicle, and homeschooled kids does not afford me many opportunities to meet other Moms, let alone other women to be mentored by.
So this morning, I nearly cried when I opened up the handout at church and saw the little box with words stating that there was going to be a weekly mentoring program for young moms and wives that was several weeks long.
I signed up right away. And that is so unlike me, usually I am too shy and scared to sign up for new things where I know no one. But at this point in my life, having made close friends where we lived, I very much miss having that companionship. I've said several times in this space that I miss my friends. It is such an understatement. It's more than just missing them.
Anyways, my point is that I signed up in hopes of not only finding someone who has already experienced this part of their life that I'm living, but that I can also meet other Moms right in my place of life. I need friendships. And I don't want to get to that place where I cry because I have no one here. I've already been down that road. It was so hard. My insecurities, shyness, and lack of social skills around people I don't know make it hard for me to make friends.
My friends in Abilene will always be my friends, I will always love them and miss them, but I am so looking forward to meeting someone I can see and chat with and go have a girls night with and things like that. Someone who has kids that my kids can play with. My boys miss that part of me having friends.
I am so excited to start in a couple of weeks. I never ever would have dreamed I would have been so thrilled to sign up for something that involves total strangers! It's so far outside of my comfort zone, just ask my husband who is usually my buffer when we have to meet new people!
I really cannot wait. I nearly cried this morning just thinking about the possibilities.