Wednesday, April 11, 2012

about the birth

 [note: I found this little gem in my drafts yesterday, so I thought I'd publish it today]


It is so strange. I feel so completely at peace with deciding to give birth at home completely naturally. If I could turn back the pages, I would have done that with all the other boys. But blogs were not a huge thing then. Researching crazy amounts of information on the internet was not in my scope at that point either.

It was just the way you did things. Go see a doctor. Give birth in a hospital around total strangers who are prodding and poking, because, really you see the doctor for like five minutes during the whole ordeal.

I honestly believe in my heart and feel with all that is in me that this birth will be smooth. It will not be completely pain free. But certainly, I believe it will be much less painless. I am not afraid. I have absolutely no fear about birthing this baby. He will born into a comfortable (even germ-less, as in less germs) space surrounded by people I love and by the same midwife who has been seeing me since the beginning. I will be able to snuggle up with my baby in my own bed as soon as he's born, breastfeeding as long as we want without a nurse telling me that's long enough (been there) because they need to whisk him away to the nursery.

My midwife will be there the whole time with me. No nurses I've never met, no shift changes in the middle of pushing (been there), no bossing me around or making me stay in bed on my back hooked up to uncomfortable monitors and IVs. No throwing a blanket off of me to check me with out warning (been there, too). My family and my midwife, I feel confident I need no other strangers there.

This birth is going to be so amazing. So beautiful and full of life giving strength. I believe the pain of labor will be minimal. With all my soul, I believe that. My body was made to give birth, and I am trusting it to do so. God made us this way, to have babies, to believe in our own abilities. Somehow, no one told me that in the beginning. It was forgotten at some point that we can birth our babies with out the assistance of the medical community. Long, long ago, women did it. And all the time, I see no reason why I can't do it now.

I am confident in my self and my body and my husband who will be my support. I know that I wouldn't be able to do this without him lovingly by my side. He is just as much a part of the birthing process as I am. Together we made this beautiful baby alone, together we will bring him into the world in the comfort of our own space with love.

3 comments:

  1. Confidence is half the battle!

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  2. I am so excited for you!!! it does seem ideal and wonderful. Looking back on my own birth experiences, i wish I could have done it the same way. i was high risk but I really wonder what it would have been like if I had known home birth was an option.

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  3. I am so excited for you!!! it does seem ideal and wonderful. Looking back on my own birth experiences, i wish I could have done it the same way. i was high risk but I really wonder what it would have been like if I had known home birth was an option.

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I am so happy you are here. Your words make my heart so happy.

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