Thursday, March 7, 2013

down down down

'Member that one time I joined Weight Watchers and then flaked out? And that one time I read Eat Clean Diet and started eating clean, and then stopped when preparing for the move? And that time I read Made to Crave and got all kinds of motivated, and then became unmotivated?

Well, now I'm back on the bandwagon. Which one, you ask? None of the above. 'Member when I set out my list of goals for 2013? And how it had lose 20lbs by my next thyroid check on March 25? It just so happens I am only a pound and a half away from that goal. Yes, people, I have lost nearly twen-ty pounds.

Here's how it all started. First, I just wanted to shed some weight, eat healthy, blah blah blah. So I started, less dairy, less gluten, no processed sugar. And I dropped weight. I started on January 3rd getting serious about it. Some days I gave in to my emotional eating, some days I gave in to my chocolate craving. But, overall, I cut a lot of stuff, including pop. I haven't had a single pop since January 3rd. I know, right? Big deal. It really is.

I started cooking and baking with coconut palm sugar, agave, buckwheat flour, and coconut or olive oil. I switched to Almond Milk. And I started drinking water like my life depended on it.

Then one day, I just felt so fed up with my psoriasis. It's always worse in the winter, but surely there were food triggers... indeed, there were. poultry, red meat, red wine, pop, processed sugar, dairy, gluten. Perhaps not all are triggers for me in particular, but I am so tired of looking diseased. I'm tired of the flaky skin on my scalp and arms and back from having psoriasis. It's frustrating, embarrassing, and itchy.

So, then and there I decided to cut allll that other stuff completely. Now I eat like a vegan. It's been nearly a week, and today I'm kinda missing a few things, namely, sweets. But I am powering through. I learned what psoriasis truly is and I decided to take control and eat like an herbivore. It's better than scaly, itchy skin. And being fat. It's definitely better than being fat. I'm really tired of that. like, really. So I'm determined. My mind is set to it. I'm praying for God to take my focus off food, and bring my focus to Him.

I was able to get rid of my fat jeans. I tossed them aside, and worked my way into my jeans that were a little more snug. Snug for a time, is okay. Especially when the bigger size was too big. Especially when I know I will get down to that size exactly, then get down to the next size below that.

The only thing I need to start doing again, besides working out, of course, is eating breakfast. I've been slacking there, and tomorrow, I bring breakfast back for me. Healthy, of course, probably just scrambled eggs with spinach and cayenne and parsley.

Everyday for lunch I drink a peanut butter smoothie. I toss something like, spinach, buckwheat flour, flax seed, peanut butter, honey (local, for allergies), cinnamon, banana, blueberries, a strawberry, almond milk, and water in it everyday. It fills me up to the point that my belly feels stuffed. I make 8-10 ounces and drink it. I don't like ice in my smoothies, so it's more drink like than thick smoothie like, and I'm okay with that, I actually prefer it. To me, it tastes a lot like peanut butter, slightly diluted. I enjoy it, although it may not be other people's taste preference.

So once I truly hit that 20lb goal, it will be time for me to set a new goal. I also will find an appropriate way to reward myself that has nothing to do with eating. Pretty sure my next goal will be a weight goal as well as a working out goal. We shall see, I need to think on it more.

Honestly, I can't take much credit for the weight loss. I believe because I have been faithful and obedient in waking up and spending time with Him, that He is giving me His strength to overcome the need to eat emotionally, and the need to eat junk.

I can tell you this... Greyson has been waking up a million times at night lately because he can't breathe. We can't seem to shake his and B's snotty noses. And even with him fighting me to begin with at bedtime and waking up a bunch, during the day, I don't feel that sluggish tired feeling I normally would. I drink about 4 ounces of coffee in the mornings, and sometimes in the afternoon. I crave that iced latte flavor more than anything else lately. But other than having those small amounts of coffee, I still feel energized more than before. I feel weary in a different way than being "tired and worn out," I long for nights when I can put him down without the fight and have momma time with tea and a book or tea and crocheting before I doze off. Someday. someday.

So friends, while this post is long, I have been asked what I'm "doing" and this is it. It's simple. Rely on Jesus, cut the junk food and processed crap, stop eating out (oh yeah, I stopped eating out, too, by the way), and work out, which I will probably do soon. I have been doing little five minute workouts here and there throughout my day, but I need to do more. I want the want-to for the working out, it's just not there. bleh.

{a crappy phone pic in a dirty mirror at the 15lbs lost mark.
in my smaller jeans and a shirt that is no longer too tight.
obviously, still some work to do.}

Tomorrow is Friday. My fellow homeschooling moms: REJOICE!!

4 comments:

  1. so happy for you. You are such an inspiration. I had been exercising 3 to 4 times a week and this week I didn't even try! It made for a horrible change in my mood. I too know that time with God makes all the difference. Thank you for sharing your journey.

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  2. I am so very, very proud of you!!!
    I'm inspired. Thanks. :)

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  3. Way to go girl! So happy for you :)
    Keep up the good work!

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