i can remember sitting in my distance learning class in high school, my senior year,
sharing my life's plan with my gal pals. it was perfect.
and i was right on track.
my goal was to get married shortly after i graduated (i was engaged already). have my first baby by 22.
keep popping kids out til i had my boy, boy, twin girls.
raise them up all around the same age. then enjoy my old age with my husband
while spoiling our grandbabies.
four kids. boy, boy twin girls.
that was the dream, the plan, the goal.
i never thought of four kids as a "big" family. i mean, after having experienced having four,
and the way society perceives four, i now understand, that yes, four is "big" to almost everyone else.
even if four never felt like a whole lot to me, that's what it is to others, a lot.
and i never, ever would have guessed i would have had five boys, and a surprise 6th baby on the way.
five kids sometimes do feel like a lot. i'm sure six will, too.
and we already get stared at like we're weirdos. strange. an anomaly.
and maybe we aren't exactly normal. but why be normal? what good does that do?
what fun is it? so we have more than 2.5 babies.
this six kids business was never the dream from my high school days.
but this is the dream now. the best dream.
six precious gifts that i sometimes want to lock in the closet with some food and an ipad so i can nap.
(because pregnancy makes me tirrrrreeeedddddd).
also, just kidding.
six kids to be there for each other. six that will always have built in friends.
i adore it. it's so crazy. but i keep hearing one verse repeated in my head the past couple of weeks.
"for i know the plans i have for you", says the Lord. "they are plans for good and not for disaster,
to give you a future and a hope." jeremiah 29:11
He does have good plans for us. for me, as mom. for my husband, as father to six kids.
for each one of my boys (and possibly my daughter) individually and as a whole crew.
He's holding our future in His palm.
He will provide for our six babies. all the food. all the shelter.
all the clothing. all the love. all of it. everything we will need (not the same as want).
i am completely confident that God will provide our every need.
even making six kids, two pups, a cat, and a mom and dad work in our 1600 sq ft, 3 bedroom house.
the Lord has got this, yo.