it makes me laugh and it makes my cry and it gives me glimpses into how
big and grand my family is going to be someday. and hopefully just as close knit.
i pray my kids and their spouses will all be super close.
people stare at our family of seven, soon to be eight, now.
and sometimes it's not fun to be gawked at.
but just imagining what our future could look like makes it okay that they stare.
all six kids.
all the daughters-in-law, the lone son-in-law,
all the grandbabies. gosh. what a future we will have.
and yes, i know the kids may scatter once they're grown.
but we dream to one day have a big home where they kids can all come back to
for holidays or extremely tough times.
sometimes having so many children, with more than half of them still so small,
it gets tough. feels impossible. and i wonder if i was the right person
for this job as mom to these monkeys.
i fail. oh, so often do i fail. but i love those kids.
i hope they know it. even when i, myself, am less than loving.
my favorite parts of the show are always when one set of parents are standing
apart from each other but also away from the happenings. the parents just
give each other such a knowing look. a reassuring, hey, look what we've accomplished.
look at our family. look how amazing. just look.
it's like a silent high five in one lingering glance.
i just watched the very last episode of the show, super sad there are no more,
but i love how they wrapped it all up throughout the last season.
anyways, all that to say, people may stare at our big family and even be silently judgy,
but it's okay. because i know we supposed to be right where we are.
five boys. one girl. a family of eight.
it's a beautiful mess. it's chaotic. it's unpredictable.
it is our life.
and if you haven't seen the show, watch it. it'll tug at your heartstrings.